Many high achievers share a dirty little secret: Deep down inside they feel like a complete fraud. I’m not implying that I consider myself a high achiever but I too resonated with Mike Guasch and Art Markman while interviewing them for our documentary film The Gentleman Driver. They touched on the imposture syndrome.
“This psychological phenomenon is a concept describing individuals who are marked by an inability to internalize their accomplishments and a persistent fear of being exposed as a "fraud". The term was coined in 1978 by clinical psychologists Pauline R. Clance and Suzanne A. Imes. Despite external evidence of their competence, those exhibiting the syndrome remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve the success they have achieved. Proof of success is dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than they believe themselves to be.”
Lets take it back to June 2, 2015. I’m sitting at a small café in Paris, France with Toni Calderon, Beaux Jackson and one or two empty bottles of wine. We were there to film one of Toni’s clients, a gentleman driver. Toni explains to us that the World Endurance Championship has a rule where each team/car must have two professional drivers and one amateur driver. Also known as a gentleman driver since they pay to race. It’s the only sport in the world where an amateur can pay to compete with pros. The person that can afford this is typically a very successful business man.
As an entrepreneur I was instantly interested in knowing more about over achievers like Ed Brown, CEO of Patron tequila, Ricardo Gonzalez, developer of the first American University in Mexico, Mike Guasch, E Cig liquid producer and Paul Dalla Lana, CEO of Northwest Healthcare. With no credible experience in documentary film making we decided to shoot a doc on these interesting cats.
Its been a reoccurring theme in my life it seems. I had no business opening a store or starting a production company and now I was promising to produce a movie. You are correct in assuming that I wrestle with feeling like an imposture. Im scared to fail, to let people down and to create something that just isn’t good enough. Sometimes the fear of what people may think about the outcomes of my projects stops me in my tracks. The only thing that shakes this fear and allows me to continue on is the realization that I owe it to myself to try as many things as I can in life and to learn as much as I possibly can before my time on Earth is done. It was surprising to hear these uber successful men talk about their internal struggles while building their empires from scratch. Watching their interviews over and over in the editing process has kept me motivated for the last two years and now we are happy to announce that soon we will be able to share our doc with the world in hopes of motivating and entertaining anyone and everyone who at times second guesses themselves. Stay tuned to find out when and where we will premier our, I dare to say, bad ass film.
Director: Mario Mattei
Executive Producer: Toni Calderon
Producer: Bijou Finney
Producer: Beaux Jackson
Editor: Justin Barclay
Sound: Michael Gibson